Would you tell me more about how alcohol feels like fuel added to the fire?

It sounds as if you have thought a lot about how alcohol might be contributing to your increasing anxiety issues. I can tell this is very important to you.

Here is what I've heard so far. Relaxing and calming down is your main reason for drinking, but you are finding that the more you drink, the more anxious you are in the end. Rather than the alcohol putting out the fire, you are beginning to think it’s like adding fuel to it.

So the alcohol used to help ease your anxiety, but now it actually causes anxiety.